“Honesty is such a lonely word
Everyone is so untrue.
Honesty is hardly ever heard.
And mostly what I need from you.”
– “Honesty” by Billy Joel
The truth shall set you free.
I’m restless. I want honesty in my life. I don’t mind putting a mirror to my life and seeing what it reflects. I’m not scared of the truth, anymore.
Well, that’s not totally true. I’m scared of some parts of my truth. But I want my truth. I want my truth so I can be free.
Impressing myself may be the theme for my year. But the ultimate result of impressing myself is freedom. I want to impress myself with a real me.
I want a real me that’s healthy. Healthy in my relationships. Healthy in my health. Healthy with my finances. Healthy with my conscience.
I dislike it if you call me fat. But I am fat. Does being fat impress me? Of course not. My disillusion keeps me captive. Not that I thought I wasn’t fat. But, I don’t want a false self. A false self does not serve me.
So who are you? What are you about? Where are you going? Whose company are you keeping?
The truth is to be a good liar, you must be good at lying to yourself. I’ve done that for too long. I’ve walked too many miles in that fog.
I just want the light. I just want awareness. I just want the truth.